wishing for happiness .....i m down to begging for it
as it never came to easy for me....then for the others

as i am alone ....i peak into her life...just to see
if my absence is of any loss to her ......

but all i see is her life complete...
i had always wished and wanted it to happen
but i dnt feel good abt it now....

what has changed in me ?
maybe the love that hurts me ......when i m alone.
but i cant do naything abt it....

but the love never lets me move on....it always asks ....me
to make promises that bound me from leaving ...and makes me live in the past

its great....to be in memories ...which never meant anything to her
coz they are everything to me....

i cant force ...nor i can leave her...
i m all on my own...searching for something that cud make her return
but all in vain...

she is happy and she wont return for anything bad....
maybe she has now ....known the fact that i m the unlucky part of her life....
and no one bothers for the unluckies....

maybe i ll have to live with this fact...and she now has proved it

she tries to contact.....but i cant let go ...everything that she did
that made me ruin myself to the present day

"I dnt feel like talking to....." her words that just enclose me...
when i see her online...and even if it difficult to live without talking to her
it stops me .....from replying .....

maybe she made a joke out of my life
everything that was true....saying i was mad
she thought ...she wont be blamed ...after telling others....
about me....

sharing my life...even when it was meant to be kept to herself...

i was in love ...solely and even i m in love with her....
and i have been rewarded the best award of love by her.........

the unwillingness to be with .....me
the unfaithfulness to me...