For U......

Shona.

U left me...with a life full of fears ,
i had plenty of them before u ,
maybe u didnt cared
and gifted me some more....

life without u ...is hell...
i have lost everything in life....and now i am giving up on it
everyday....

please come back...but come back with a promise ..

Promise .
that maybe the end of you , the end of me ...and the end of the life
existing without U...


feeling remain silenced ..and they have given up and slept...just like a child
given a fake assurance of what he desires...

but the truth ..lies
and the change never come...

i was with my friends ...trying to be in the outside world without u....
they all met ...explained....their busy schedules..making fake promises of meeting again
but it all lies in between ...something known as trust...they are friends
they wont betray.....

but i m fearing to trust anyone....after what u did to me....
trust is now something ....that has no value....
its all fake for me.....

just like ...i was a part of life is a lie ..for everyone who is part of ur life

she said once....words as it quoted

" if i shall meet u in the future....i ll ignore ..U "

these words meant that she felt so disgraced to have known me...and i never knew that

....

we went to meet our old friend ...who had become a playboy
with the activities he had got into with the opposites.......
the title was apt on him...

he was waiting for his tution mate to come ..and he called us ..to meet him down
his coaching place..

we were surprised ..were they only two , who were studying there...
but the reply sorted all that.....they were only two attending classes that day
and all others had opted for an off for that day..

somehow ...my friend had some news abt his tution mate..
which he discussed.....

the discussion...went off in a while....and it hit me hard of the three persons
present there....

they actually made fun ...of the sentiments and feelings ..she had for her bfs
in her past relationships...

and how they broke up in the end.....

they all had their reasons to laugh.....but i saw  a replica of my life...in her story

they all laughed ..while i felt ached...something in me...asked me ?
wud they laugh at ur story too ?
i wasnt sure....i was no different from her ...in the story of love..

i got so insecure ..that i never told anyone...abt my story after that....
and never laughed on anyone's story....

it all made me ..realize ....i was all alone in life....

" I have no-one to be with ..without u , as no one understood me ...more than u do"
:(